colors...
if a blind man ask me to describe how the sun rise look like, the answer will goes like this, it's purple,dark blue...like cotton wool...many strings of clouds rolling one on top of each other, in a very good formation.
if the blind man ask me to describe sun set, my answer will goes like this, orange , silky cloud...on the opposite side its dark...real dark , like a storm is coming...
but i would like to ask u guys...wat is the color of happiness, wat is the color of sad, wat is the color of conflict...wat is the color is dilemma???
decision are often hard to make, and it depends on how we interpret; so there is no right or wrong.i've been asking myself, had i waste too much time, had i enter the wrong course???should i con'd doing it, or juz quit...but i am so far yet so near...
mama alwiz said, decision is in our hand...work hard...strive hard...
so wat is the color for happiness, sad ...and so on???
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
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da only park in the city...
yes...there is plenty of koi!!!
and surprisingly...been to the mall lots of times , 1st time going into this area...hehe
burfday gurl
yeah...burfday girl n me...haha...while taking this pic , i feel a bit akward...cuz public area ...where got ppl take pics in shopping mall wan???so many ppl, but wat also must try at least its the first and the last....haha
me n my frenly neighbour
who is she???she is the last month birthday girl...
she is alwiz beside me when i am using the pc, while she is busy eating...
Thursday, March 23, 2006
The Rain At 3.30pm...
All of the sudden i felt that i was 'touched' by this rain.
most probably these few days , lots of problem crops up, unfinished bussiness... ... Some were finally resolved, some were still there, waiting for me , and waiting for others decision... ...things usually can't be done by one man alone, that's why the word 'cooperation' comes in.
Standing at the kitchen window, observing the janitor sweeping the the floor, suddenly a drop of water feel on his head , gradually a few more other... he quickly finish off the section he is sweeping, even though its raining, seconds after that,cold breeze of wind blew, the not so tall tree in the pot dropped off several dried leaves...he got to sweep it again, its raining...the rain gets heavier and heavier yet he still sweeps the floor,bird on the trees...started to flee from the scene as the rain has ruin their afternoon, some came into the balcony of the house...some flew to the roof of the balcony...some stood on the hanger...
the winamp was very cooperative, playing the sentimental songs...makes me feel like blogging...
i suddenly notice that i blog too often, so often that i even write craps such as this...
but think twice, this rain, sort of gave me the inspiration to get things done, to tell me that there will be rainbow after the rain, sun will shine as bright as ever...although now the sky may seems sad , crying...but once after its over...its over...it won't rain forever, same goes with life, u won't be unfortunately forever, we juz got to work our way out!No one can help us through, besides ourself, so when u are sad, juz try to be sad, no point acting happy, emotion this is what we called , after a while, it will go away...it will become memory...looking back at it in the future, it might be a funny one, or a meaningful one...no matter what it is...life goes on...the world won't stop turning because you are sad, or you are happy, we are juz tiny little ones...always remember that we are not alone!
think u are pity???there is someone out there that suffer thousand times more than u ...
my sister reminds me that i am very lucky d,having the car when i was only 21, whereas my sister and brother got a car only after a few years workingm during that period, they have to take the mini buses, that will take around 1 1/2 hours to reach the destination. Me!!!i take only 30 mins to go whenever i want...take into the account of the allowance i am getting now, i am not rich, but i am not poor either, i juz can't afford to spend like others, thousand on handphones, thousand on pc, thoudsand on cars...that why i prefer to stick to simple and nice...juz prefect will do...
i came from not so well-being family, my parents work their way out, until today, my dad is still working.whereas i am spending...
i still remember my mum alwiz told me that i was lucky cuz when i was born we moved into a new house, i get a better enviroment to lived in, whereas my brothers and sister used to live in rumah papan in kampung with my grandpa and grandma. they dun have a good enviroment, but they still earn a reputation in the society. ME on the other hand, have a good enviroment, tuitions and so on , yet i am in not doing pretty good...if my elder brother was born later , when my family can afford better education for him, he will be successful my mum told me, whenever my mum told me this , i can feel that she felt sorry for him...
before my dad brought a car, our only transportation is motorbike, I will be sandwich between my dad and my mum, they are taking me to the babysiter...and my dad will be off working , same goes to my mum...
my dad is still driving the same car, after 40 yrs!!!and the bike too, its still there...i guess our family has this loyal genes in us...i am still having the same pillow case for more than 20 yrs...(of cuz i washed it)...its in bits and pieces now...
my house still is the same, the sofa too!!!when u ask me to throw them out, i kinda felt 'dunwan lar' sit so long d...keep la...baby my dog sleeps there too!!!
my dad hasn't been overseas, hasn't travel on tour before, he is so dedicated to his work, he hasn't been on leave, even he is sick...i wonder why...
i remember my mum told me, not so long after i was born ,my sis was hit by a car when she was riding with my dad on the bike on the way to the hospital to visit my mum, my sister was hurt on some part her ear...luckily,the doctor at that time manage to stitch it back...it looks like normal now...
sometimes people that doesn't face hardship, never grows up, never learn lesson...
the process of learning never stops, u learn from the day u were born and the day u was laid into the coffin...that's true!
considering that i am youngest and having all the benefits, i am now no where , no aim, i suddenly feel so lost...my brain is empty...juz dunno wat to do...hopefully when things are in placed i will get back my aim, my objectives...everyone must work hard , there is no free lunch, but also work smartly...smartly not sneaky!!!
the rain juz stop once i reach the end of my post(motivates me even more)...i am going to see whether there is rainbow a not!!!
ALWAYS A BETTER AND BRIGHTER TOMMOROW!
In your heart: ming...:)
most probably these few days , lots of problem crops up, unfinished bussiness... ... Some were finally resolved, some were still there, waiting for me , and waiting for others decision... ...things usually can't be done by one man alone, that's why the word 'cooperation' comes in.
Standing at the kitchen window, observing the janitor sweeping the the floor, suddenly a drop of water feel on his head , gradually a few more other... he quickly finish off the section he is sweeping, even though its raining, seconds after that,cold breeze of wind blew, the not so tall tree in the pot dropped off several dried leaves...he got to sweep it again, its raining...the rain gets heavier and heavier yet he still sweeps the floor,bird on the trees...started to flee from the scene as the rain has ruin their afternoon, some came into the balcony of the house...some flew to the roof of the balcony...some stood on the hanger...
the winamp was very cooperative, playing the sentimental songs...makes me feel like blogging...
i suddenly notice that i blog too often, so often that i even write craps such as this...
but think twice, this rain, sort of gave me the inspiration to get things done, to tell me that there will be rainbow after the rain, sun will shine as bright as ever...although now the sky may seems sad , crying...but once after its over...its over...it won't rain forever, same goes with life, u won't be unfortunately forever, we juz got to work our way out!No one can help us through, besides ourself, so when u are sad, juz try to be sad, no point acting happy, emotion this is what we called , after a while, it will go away...it will become memory...looking back at it in the future, it might be a funny one, or a meaningful one...no matter what it is...life goes on...the world won't stop turning because you are sad, or you are happy, we are juz tiny little ones...always remember that we are not alone!
think u are pity???there is someone out there that suffer thousand times more than u ...
my sister reminds me that i am very lucky d,having the car when i was only 21, whereas my sister and brother got a car only after a few years workingm during that period, they have to take the mini buses, that will take around 1 1/2 hours to reach the destination. Me!!!i take only 30 mins to go whenever i want...take into the account of the allowance i am getting now, i am not rich, but i am not poor either, i juz can't afford to spend like others, thousand on handphones, thousand on pc, thoudsand on cars...that why i prefer to stick to simple and nice...juz prefect will do...
i came from not so well-being family, my parents work their way out, until today, my dad is still working.whereas i am spending...
i still remember my mum alwiz told me that i was lucky cuz when i was born we moved into a new house, i get a better enviroment to lived in, whereas my brothers and sister used to live in rumah papan in kampung with my grandpa and grandma. they dun have a good enviroment, but they still earn a reputation in the society. ME on the other hand, have a good enviroment, tuitions and so on , yet i am in not doing pretty good...if my elder brother was born later , when my family can afford better education for him, he will be successful my mum told me, whenever my mum told me this , i can feel that she felt sorry for him...
before my dad brought a car, our only transportation is motorbike, I will be sandwich between my dad and my mum, they are taking me to the babysiter...and my dad will be off working , same goes to my mum...
my dad is still driving the same car, after 40 yrs!!!and the bike too, its still there...i guess our family has this loyal genes in us...i am still having the same pillow case for more than 20 yrs...(of cuz i washed it)...its in bits and pieces now...
my house still is the same, the sofa too!!!when u ask me to throw them out, i kinda felt 'dunwan lar' sit so long d...keep la...baby my dog sleeps there too!!!
my dad hasn't been overseas, hasn't travel on tour before, he is so dedicated to his work, he hasn't been on leave, even he is sick...i wonder why...
i remember my mum told me, not so long after i was born ,my sis was hit by a car when she was riding with my dad on the bike on the way to the hospital to visit my mum, my sister was hurt on some part her ear...luckily,the doctor at that time manage to stitch it back...it looks like normal now...
sometimes people that doesn't face hardship, never grows up, never learn lesson...
the process of learning never stops, u learn from the day u were born and the day u was laid into the coffin...that's true!
considering that i am youngest and having all the benefits, i am now no where , no aim, i suddenly feel so lost...my brain is empty...juz dunno wat to do...hopefully when things are in placed i will get back my aim, my objectives...everyone must work hard , there is no free lunch, but also work smartly...smartly not sneaky!!!
the rain juz stop once i reach the end of my post(motivates me even more)...i am going to see whether there is rainbow a not!!!
ALWAYS A BETTER AND BRIGHTER TOMMOROW!
In your heart: ming...:)
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
你到底爱谁？
一个人喝醉好想找个人来陪我们之间有太多的误会爱不能再沉睡是可悲是摧毁我不要再为谁掉眼泪爱过才后悔想要用酒来麻醉我们之间有太多的误会爱不能再沉睡是可悲是摧毁我不要再为谁而心碎求求你给我个机会不要再对爱说无所谓如果相爱是眼泪就让我们用真心去面对求求你给我个机会不要再对爱说无所谓留下了太多伤悲告诉我你到底爱着谁。。。
生老病死，我可以接受。反而，幸福快乐我就开始怀疑了。可能在其他人眼里是完美的，但在当事人眼里却是十分痛苦。或者，在其他人的眼里，那对情人一天到晚在骂架，但他们反而觉得骂架也是一种乐趣！有些时候我问我自己，简简单单活到老，还是精彩活半辈子呢？那你呢？
很多事情都有双面，只是由你来决定往那个角度去看而已。
事情十分简单，为何人要把它弄得那么复杂？
这就是人生！人生有趣的地方，就是有的选择！
没挫侧，就不是人生啦！
做任何事都一定要想一想，一定要做对的选择!
生老病死，我可以接受。反而，幸福快乐我就开始怀疑了。可能在其他人眼里是完美的，但在当事人眼里却是十分痛苦。或者，在其他人的眼里，那对情人一天到晚在骂架，但他们反而觉得骂架也是一种乐趣！有些时候我问我自己，简简单单活到老，还是精彩活半辈子呢？那你呢？
很多事情都有双面，只是由你来决定往那个角度去看而已。
事情十分简单，为何人要把它弄得那么复杂？
这就是人生！人生有趣的地方，就是有的选择！
没挫侧，就不是人生啦！
做任何事都一定要想一想，一定要做对的选择!
Monday, March 20, 2006
hungry...
been starving for more than 3 hours...brain lack of oxygen, can't think properly,whatever i look at tends to get blur within seconds.Having difficulties getting down from the stairs.this is how i feel right now.
i was thinking about something, part by part, little by little...is like a puzzle with lots of peices, is like a person who has lost his memory , but gaining it back slowly.
Among the things that cross my mind was , why other people are so happily together, and i am not??
One of the midterm paper was postpond today, but i wasn't happy at all,or i don't even care???
I wonder is there really such things like what the monk believe, "karma", or better known as what u did in ur past life, u will get it in present life...and lots more example...
u need to do lots of good deed in order u can live better, is it really such things??well, if u are a believer, then there is such things, if u are not, then u juz accept whatever that comes...
arrgghh..still hungry...somehow, once i pass my dinner time, i dun feel anything, my stomach won't be like linkin park, i will only lose my concentration, that is already bad enough for me now.
i was thinking about something, part by part, little by little...is like a puzzle with lots of peices, is like a person who has lost his memory , but gaining it back slowly.
Among the things that cross my mind was , why other people are so happily together, and i am not??
One of the midterm paper was postpond today, but i wasn't happy at all,or i don't even care???
I wonder is there really such things like what the monk believe, "karma", or better known as what u did in ur past life, u will get it in present life...and lots more example...
u need to do lots of good deed in order u can live better, is it really such things??well, if u are a believer, then there is such things, if u are not, then u juz accept whatever that comes...
arrgghh..still hungry...somehow, once i pass my dinner time, i dun feel anything, my stomach won't be like linkin park, i will only lose my concentration, that is already bad enough for me now.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
my sister's hero (part 2)
an hour ago i posted that the air con compressor was spoil...well, juz now i went down to take a look at the engine and i found out that the fan fell off...so it's totally not because of the compressor...hopefully..hehe...
u know, the feeling now is so confusing...i am happy that the fan is cheap to be replaced...
on the other hand, i am also worried that it might going to cost me more , during the fan fell off, it might hit sumthing...i dare not turn on the air con now...afraid that the compressor get overheated...
everytime when i am not alone in the car, the car air con fails...twice already!!!
when is this curse going to stop???-_-"
(con'd study...)
u know, the feeling now is so confusing...i am happy that the fan is cheap to be replaced...
on the other hand, i am also worried that it might going to cost me more , during the fan fell off, it might hit sumthing...i dare not turn on the air con now...afraid that the compressor get overheated...
everytime when i am not alone in the car, the car air con fails...twice already!!!
when is this curse going to stop???-_-"
(con'd study...)
my sister's hero
as the youngest child in the family i alwiz get the things i want done easily ...like the stuff i need.Cuz all the main obstacles are handle by my brother and sister already , so until my stage my parents kinda understand how to handle me already...and knows wat i want and so on...so life for me is peaceful...easy life...
so often i get 2nd hand stuff, from small till now...
i used 2nd hand text book with notes written all over, makes studies easier...
bed that has squeaking sounds that has been pass from my brother to sis , from my sister to me...
same things goes to discman, and pc...hehe...
recently i got this 5 yrs old car from my sis , as u all know national cars will tends to give problem after 5 yrs..all the major parts will start to fail...so this particular car have been given me this problem and i have been dragging this problem for months...juz becuz it's still working...EVERYTHING WENT FINE UNTIL TODAY!!~
THE AIR -CONDITIONING SYSTEM FAIL-ed...that pissed me really much...wanna know how much???it is this much<--------------------------------------------------------------------->
the weather is so hot...and the car is trapping hot air after long period under the sun, so when i got into the car without the air con the car is like an oven...
a month ago...i had the compressor temporary fixed...becuz of the oil seal is leaking...then a week after that the fan was broken...this lead to the compressor is overheated again and the oil seals leaks again...this time..terrible sound , i can even hear it from the inside of the car(is like knocking sound from drum)...i suspect that the entire system is now clog with fluid, dirty fluid besides the air con gases...major operation and long time is going to take the mechanic to fixed this shits...hopefully after repairing this, this car will be in good condition and nothing else shall fail!!!
its really gonna hurt the pocket...of my sister ...haha...
so often i get 2nd hand stuff, from small till now...
i used 2nd hand text book with notes written all over, makes studies easier...
bed that has squeaking sounds that has been pass from my brother to sis , from my sister to me...
same things goes to discman, and pc...hehe...
recently i got this 5 yrs old car from my sis , as u all know national cars will tends to give problem after 5 yrs..all the major parts will start to fail...so this particular car have been given me this problem and i have been dragging this problem for months...juz becuz it's still working...EVERYTHING WENT FINE UNTIL TODAY!!~
THE AIR -CONDITIONING SYSTEM FAIL-ed...that pissed me really much...wanna know how much???it is this much<--------------------------------------------------------------------->
the weather is so hot...and the car is trapping hot air after long period under the sun, so when i got into the car without the air con the car is like an oven...
a month ago...i had the compressor temporary fixed...becuz of the oil seal is leaking...then a week after that the fan was broken...this lead to the compressor is overheated again and the oil seals leaks again...this time..terrible sound , i can even hear it from the inside of the car(is like knocking sound from drum)...i suspect that the entire system is now clog with fluid, dirty fluid besides the air con gases...major operation and long time is going to take the mechanic to fixed this shits...hopefully after repairing this, this car will be in good condition and nothing else shall fail!!!
its really gonna hurt the pocket...of my sister ...haha...
Monday, March 13, 2006
In doubt...
why sometimes a professor got to be manage by a graduated diploma student in the account dept??managing all his pay, when he get his salary, applying for leave...why???
why post-graduate or undergraduate student are being control by those people in the admin that don't care about the feelings of students?they don't have the motivation to work, why should they be there???becuz of skin color???even though they lack of brain cells but poeple still tries and spend money pushing them way up high...eventually all the efforts are wasted...after so many years they still don't understand...people like them , no matter how well u treat them, they will juz turn around and stab u right in front of ur chest...over and over agian...
people are still trying to be saint and helping them out...wiping out others...but others are the one that work quietly and effectively...being forces to support them financially...
some have to work so hard , some were born with silver spoon...some were lucky forever...some were not so lucky...everyone must face obstacles in life in order to gain experience , if one face nothing in life, IT won't learn anything...
why post-graduate or undergraduate student are being control by those people in the admin that don't care about the feelings of students?they don't have the motivation to work, why should they be there???becuz of skin color???even though they lack of brain cells but poeple still tries and spend money pushing them way up high...eventually all the efforts are wasted...after so many years they still don't understand...people like them , no matter how well u treat them, they will juz turn around and stab u right in front of ur chest...over and over agian...
people are still trying to be saint and helping them out...wiping out others...but others are the one that work quietly and effectively...being forces to support them financially...
some have to work so hard , some were born with silver spoon...some were lucky forever...some were not so lucky...everyone must face obstacles in life in order to gain experience , if one face nothing in life, IT won't learn anything...
legal or not??
have u guys receive a summon from the police and not knowing where is the exact place did they took the picture of ur car speeding...they might be hiding behind the tree, behind the pillar...but i wonder is it legal for them to hide and wait for 'victims' to commit offence??
the recent incident regrading the ear squart, make us wonder what are the polices rights and also our rights...well, our parents pay taxes , pays for their bullets, training, fuel, accomodation(hotels), their annual dinner...and their maintainace for their perdana and waja patrol cars...are they doing the right thing??their are monitoring us but in contrast to that who is actually monitoring them??the way the act off duty...are doubtful...
the recent badge on them, "saya anti- rasuah"...any implications on public yet, ur preception on the policemen changed yet???those without this badge means they will ... ... isit??
small issue people make it big...cuz they feel their right are being abused...but sometimes the law don't protect us no more, it's used againts us...when u are doing crime of cuz it's used againts u , but when u are not....they are there to protect you...
so to make things and life easier...juz live our life moderately...do no crime...buy huge amount or insurance..juz in case ...haha...~~~
the recent incident regrading the ear squart, make us wonder what are the polices rights and also our rights...well, our parents pay taxes , pays for their bullets, training, fuel, accomodation(hotels), their annual dinner...and their maintainace for their perdana and waja patrol cars...are they doing the right thing??their are monitoring us but in contrast to that who is actually monitoring them??the way the act off duty...are doubtful...
the recent badge on them, "saya anti- rasuah"...any implications on public yet, ur preception on the policemen changed yet???those without this badge means they will ... ... isit??
small issue people make it big...cuz they feel their right are being abused...but sometimes the law don't protect us no more, it's used againts us...when u are doing crime of cuz it's used againts u , but when u are not....they are there to protect you...
so to make things and life easier...juz live our life moderately...do no crime...buy huge amount or insurance..juz in case ...haha...~~~
fEeLiNgS
FEELINGS...have you ever wonder why sometimes u can't make decision??
for example:sometimes i know i want to blog about something then suddenly a phone call or someone opens a door, or the door bell rings...it can easily distract my attention on what i am about to do...then i totally forgotten to blog...last weekend i thought i was getting old that's why i act this way...but then i notice, even my mom can remember why can't i???
then i suddenly figured out why i was acting this way...it's simple becuz i sleep too much!!!and also i watch too much dvds...hehe...
so the moral of the story is...don't drink so many teh tarik, dun eat so much nasi lemak , or else ur brain will be worse than a 70 yrs old uncle or aunty...hehe...
for example:sometimes i know i want to blog about something then suddenly a phone call or someone opens a door, or the door bell rings...it can easily distract my attention on what i am about to do...then i totally forgotten to blog...last weekend i thought i was getting old that's why i act this way...but then i notice, even my mom can remember why can't i???
then i suddenly figured out why i was acting this way...it's simple becuz i sleep too much!!!and also i watch too much dvds...hehe...
so the moral of the story is...don't drink so many teh tarik, dun eat so much nasi lemak , or else ur brain will be worse than a 70 yrs old uncle or aunty...hehe...
Thursday, March 09, 2006
birthday girl with birthday cake
ohh my god...my housemate kim kee , she like the peace hand sign very much!!!
yummy~~~
she insist me on posting this pic...wat to do, she say she looks very good in here wor...(-_-")
CK LEE and Me...
yeah...my buddy from hell...hehe...this is chong kan my roomate...
anyone wants his contact number??get it from me!!!
birthday girl and *unidentified man*
not unidentified la...hehe...men in red is jing ze, lady in pink is kim kee, pronounce it in mandarin they sounds almost the same!!!
opps...i ready and u are NOT!!~~
hehee...got cha~~~the smallest eyes on earth...looks like one tiny straight line strecth from both side of the face...hehe...next time say get ready and count 1 2 3 lar....dumb cameramen
ji mui men's(sister sister)
yeah ...ji mui men's pic...but i wonder why there is a guy there??:-??
no wonder his face like that lar...masam masam wan...hahaha.....
make a wish , make a wish...
*wish i will be rich and v2 will propose to me soon*(heheh...totally my imagination..sorry kim kee ong)keke
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
candles...
not enuff air...the lung too small; got to take 2 breath agian before blowing all the candles out..
the men in red, the strawberry and the birthday pompuan!!!
no matter how sweet the strawberry is, it will taste sour to her...HELP~~~
the cake...
this is the cake....hehe...22 yrs old liow...damn sad...well here is the brief description of the cake,it is definitely not a cheese cake..it's call mousse cake, chocolate mousse cake to be specific...it has a layer of sponge cake, and then the mousse...vanila mousse...then another layer of sponge cake..yummy...~~~
One Night In Station One
i have no idea what this plate is but the funny thing is there is only piece or shud i call it string of 'siu bak choi'...really damn stingy restaurant...wondering its a decoration or can we really eat it...anyway,my fren say the chicken chop was nice..hehe...
Well, actually that day was my house mate birthday...the one that is below being fed strawberry....dun be mistaken, the guy who is feeding him is not his bf...haha...her bf has a funny pet name...v2...sounds like the canon camera v 2(square)...but anyway, she is really a cute girl(not to mention stingy..keke)...so it was worth to celebrate for her , rather than doing the usual stuff such as buying a cake back home to cyber...wait till 12 midnight, off the lights and bring the cake to her...regardless she is in her room, or in the toilet(this was wat happen last year), or in the living room watching drama(her fav activity)...then sing the sad tune birthday song then blow candle then cut cake then eat then we all dismiss...haha...so this year was rather special...we all manage to go out!!yeah!!!finally!!~~~
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