Seconds Before Death

As usual...i was waken up by someone opening the grill and the locks...i looked up, lights were turn on...air con too were turn on...i feel extremely cold this morning...the cloth i was sitting on wasn't wet...i stood up and tried drink some water...but, i could'nt even have a sip...my tougue wasn't long enough...nevermind, mommy with come later in the afternoon to feed me, i will drink and eat by then...so no problem...

waited and waited, the cat beside me was brought out, his cage was cleaned, food were being placed into his bowl...the people in the vet, did not place food in my bowl, sad i felt,they juz change the water in the bowl...but again nevermind...mommy will come later...there were other patient came into the clinic coming in and out, in and out...then someone open the door, i recognise the footstep of mommy and shinyee...to my surprise, minghaw came too...after 3 days of his absent he finally came...i was so happy,my food finally came...mommy took me out from my cage,and put me on her chest, she feed me patiently...i was so useless, food was all around her cloth and my mouth, i wasn't able to swallow my food properly...i tried to eat as much as i could, as i can only have a meal in one day, cuz they only come by and visit me once in a day...soon...full i was...or at least i suppose i was full..i was too tired to eat anymore...but i felt so comfortable the way mommy carry me...saliva kept dripping from my mouth, and the stink...i don't even like myself anymore, i don't like the way i am now...i used to be fat!!!chubby cute, playful,naughty...but now...there i was on drip, i can't go anywhere i want...cuz this stupid thing is following me everywhere i go...and i am too weak to drag it along with me...but minghaw,shinyee and mommy brought me out for a walk...

Finally fresh air, greens!!!i love greens!!!i can pee and shit on them...they took turn to walk me around for about 15 mins...then minghaw brought out something that flashes, after a few flashes...i tried to hide from it...i turn here and there...try to hide beneath the car...suddenly the flashes stopped...ahhhhh...so comfortable and free agian...i walk for another 5 mins...then they carry me back into the clinic...they did not place me in the cage, this time minghaw carried me...wipping my mouth for me...and kept talking to me...i wish i could understand wat he was saying...but i can feel...hehe...then a few more flashes...and i was placed back into the cage...usually i will walk into the cage my self...but today, i juz felt so comfortable the way they carry me, i juz hope that it won't stop...so i refuse to get into the cage...the minute they put me in, i walk out, the minute they put me in, i walk out again...hehe...but as a dog, we know we can never fight again a human, esspecially when we are sick and weak...i finally gave in...and the cage door was close...shinyee walk out from the room, all left in the room was juz mommy and minghaw...my hand...i was kept calling minghaw, he looked at me, he wanted to take me out, but mommy did not allow him to do so...i continue to call, myhand, ikept scratching on the cage...i juz kept calling...

saliva kept dripping from my mouth...everytime minghaw was looking at me, i called him...but he ignores me...*sad*then the doctor came in...he is the one who did an operation on me and also few days back, he remove tartar and plague from my teeth...after short discussion...i was taken out again...*hehe* i was so happy, i thought i finally can go home...yeah!!!i definitely miss my bed and pillow...i miss the tv, i miss the newspaper man, i miss the cat next door, i miss the rubbish guy, i miss the gas guy,i miss the post man, i miss the dog a few doors away, i miss so much thing!!!!i juz miss home...i couldn't remember how long i was away from it...about a month i think...oh god!!i did not bath for a month, i must have stink!!!plus the saliva, i must have bad BO!!!

i was taken on top of the operating table...i was looking around as usual...minghaw and mommy were standing on my right side, and the doc was standing on the left side...mommy pet me on the head...then i could feel the drip was removed from my leg...but...slowly i feel that that my back leg has no more energy, i begin to collapse...my body fell down seconds later...my head too was too heavy...it went down too!!!everything i see went blur, from very bright to very dark...

*although i did not know wat happen to me,but i know they did what was best for me and also for them...*